April 2015

4/19/2015

Schedule for May Blog Posts


Okay, so if you actually read this blog, you'll know I'm going to do something crazy. I'm planning on posting a new blog post every single day of May. I'm not even going to lie, this blog post is mostly for me to keep organized, but if you want to know what days you can tune in or decide to skip, here you go.


  1. May 1st- Representation in Media (and a little sidenote about it being my birthday- I've already written this post hahah)
  2. May 2nd- Why We Shouldn't Kill the Arts
  3. May 3rd- Don't Belittle Yourself for Others
  4. May 4th- Body Love
  5. May 5th- Why I Love...
  6. May 6th- Those Awful Chain E-Mails Have a Point..
  7. May 7th- Influences in Life
  8. May 8th- For my LGBTQ Followers...
  9. May 9th- Unexpected 
  10. May 10th- Social Media 
  11. May 11th- Sad Thoughts
  12. May 12th- Awful 'Friends'
  13. May 13th- Looking Up!
  14. May 14th- Feelings 2.0
  15. May 15th- Growing Comfortable
  16. May 16th- Girl Love
  17. May 17th- Waiting
  18. May 18th- Late Night Thoughts
  19. May 19th- For a Laugh
  20. May 20th- Spring, Man
  21. May 21st- Straight-edge Appreciation
  22. May 22nd- Recovery
  23. May 23rd- Stop Measuring Life and Success in Numbers
  24. May 24th- Being Honest with Yourself (Probably Feelings 3.0, let's be real here)
  25. May 25th- Reclaiming Yourself
  26. May 26th- Old Doesn't Mean...
  27. May 27th- Education
  28. May 28th- Friendships
  29. May 29th- We're Going To Get Through This..
  30. May 30th- Pets 
  31. May 31th- Questions Answered
Be prepared for all the HTGAWM screencaps in May! I'm so prepared.

4/09/2015

Doing the Right Things for the Right Reasons


First off, sorry for the mess that my blog was the other night. I think that this theme will do just well. You know, you can make comments, actually see the correct date, and actually read the post. That's always a good thing, eh?

Today has kind of been a mess for me. I'm wondering if I should slow down with posts here, just because next month I'm going to be posting every single day. However, I think I should probably just get used to posting so often this month.

Anyways, enough with my blog stuff that none of you really care about anyways.

All you are really here for is my carefully placed HTGAWM references and crap, don't you lie to me!
[read that in Annalise's voice, please]

Anyways, friend, I hope you've had a good day. Really. I hope you've had as lovely of a day as my friend Brett has. He was listening to the radio this morning and his idol Fred Rogers' wonderful birthday theme song started playing when they announced the birthdays today. He is literally going to be Fred Rogers. Well, the science teacher version of Fred Rogers.

What today's post is about is doing things for the right reasons. Mostly about doing things online for the right reasons.

You have something that interests you, right? You have a passion, right? Whether that be writing blog posts like me, writing stories, acting, drawing, singing, or whatever else, you love doing it, right? 

What do you think about people who only are into your passion for the recognition? 

Let me just say this. I love writing blog posts. I love drawing. I love writing stories. I do not do those things for the numbers. I mean, I would love to make a career out of these things and maybe my opinions will change then once there's a source of income getting in, but I really do not care much about numbers.

It's so silly to spend so much time on something because you want to conform to a standard to make people like you. You know what? Some people out there are going to like your stuff, no matter what. Don't just start a YouTube channel, blog, pursue acting, pursue singing, etc. just because you think that you will get famous. What's the important thing is that you enjoy it and you want to let others enjoy it with you. 

Besides, that whole, "I want to be famous" thing is overrated anyways. Sure, it's nice having people comment on my stuff. Does that make me famous? No. Does that make me happy? Yes. Do I only write blog posts or whatever because I want views? No. 

It's not realistic anyways to think that you're going to start something and get views, likes, or recognition instantly. You're going to most likely quit if you don't have the passion for it. 

I think that you should start doing things for you. If you want to pursue something, do it because it makes you happy. 

Besides, at the end of the day, when you are staying up at two in the morning to pursue whatever, you're going to feel better knowing that you're not just doing this for the public. You're also doing it for you.


4/07/2015

Accomplishments


I was so excited to write another blog post. Yesterday I kept refreshing and hoping to find an excuse to keep writing. I like to space my posts out between days, but I've been trying to just post when I get a good idea.

Today, I am going to write a post about accomplishments! Whew, accomplishments. Also known as those things you hung up on the fridge if you got a good grade on it. Which are also known as math tests, but getting a good grade on a math test when you were in elementary school made you feel on top of the world. While we may not exactly hang up our accomplishments on the refrigerator anymore, (I still hang up my assignments I've done well on the refrigerator) we still have accomplishments. Big or small.

I wrote a paper at four A.M. I got it back today. My marks? 148/150. I was happy, to say the least.

You should be proud of your accomplishments. You're never too old to be smiling all day because you have done good. Just like you're allowed to do good, you are also allowed to feel good about doing good. Woah, a lot of good.

Even if your accomplishments are doing well in math. Even if your accomplishments are the accomplishments you get from Steam. Even if your accomplishments are coding a website. They are all accomplishments, nevertheless.

Accomplishing things are just a part of life. Don't let people make you feel down about being excited for doing good. Debby Downers are only fun if you're all down at the same time, eating lunch together and talking crap about people. Especially Rebecca, that girl who stole your boyfriend and then also your new boyfriend. Then she stole money from you. She's obviously awful, don't let them tell you otherwise.
This is not the Rebecca we are talking about though. 
This Rebecca had a rough life and we should all feel ashamed for judging her so soon. 
She's just a cute brunette who had the worst luck ever and didn't deserve the stuff that happened to her. 

Feel good today about all you have achieved. In the famous words of the show Community.... "You go, girl!"

4/06/2015

Being the Second Option.


Okay, so before I get into the depressing mess this post will be, I have something to announce. First off, happy belated Easter! Wouldn't have been belated if I wrote this blog post sooner, but I never said I was entirely perfect. Second off, the announcement. I will be writing a blog post every single day in May. Even on my birthday. Psst, my birthday is the 1st of May.

Just send me pictures of screenshots from HTGAWM for my birthday. I promise I don't have them all. My submit is here on Tumblr, I think.
I really like Katie Findlay, too, remember that. 

Anyways, on to the serious stuff. Being the second option. Now, this can be taken as a platonic friendship or an, er, not so platonic relationship. Whatever floats your boat, dear. 

I've been thinking about this topic a lot in the past few days. It's something that's hitting close to home right now, to say the least. I don't like it, but I've always been the second- or third, fourth, fifth- option in life. I've had very few friends that put me above others. 

Here's the thing. We can't make people like us. We can't make people prefer us. We just sit in the back watching all this crap go down, down, in an earlier round (I'm so sorry oh my god) and hope. Hope that things don't work out, that we're victorious. We get jealous. We're human. We do this.

I guess this path makes us hate more than we should. Maybe that speeds up the part when we grow even more distant- that part where we start to hate the first option. Maybe it wouldn't kill us to say hi to the first option. 

In my own personal experience, there's a few stages to this. 
Well, first off, sorry for the lack of thought into color choice there. 
Second off, add a vague fight after you realize you hate the new person somewhere around there. 

Here is the thing. I'm not going to make some speech about how you are the only person you should really be there for in life 100%. I'm not going to make some speech about how you'll be happy in the end. I'm not going to say anything like that.

Why? Because losing people to others sucks. You feel like you did something wrong somewhere along the way. You probably want to play this song and try to relate even though this song has nothing to do about friendship dying as I realize as I copy and paste the link.

You probably feel like you're not good enough. It has nothing to do with you. It has absolutely nothing to do with you. You are good enough and you do not deserve this. 

What I want to say is that, one day, you'll meet someone who will put you first in a majority of things and actually consider you their best friend. I get it might take awhile, but for all my readers who watch YouTube, guess what YouTubers had the same things happen to them for years? Who has an absolute best friend now? 

One day, you'll be alright. 

4/02/2015

Feelings.


We all know that word. We all have feelings, ranging from what we feel about our partners, friends, family, and how we felt watching the last ten minutes of the season finale of How To Get Away With Murder. We even try to hide from our feelings. Some of us can succeed doing so.

I think that feelings are one of the very few things on this Earth that are truly ours. Things like where we live and the things we own can be taken from us so easily. But we have our feelings no matter what, even if we want to turn them off sometimes more than we should. 

I never really knew what to do with my feelings in life. I guess I still don't. Do I sleep them off? Do I ignore them until they go away? Do I write a book? Do I write the silliest blog post ever?

It's so hard sometimes. Life is hard sometimes. I think that's something we, as a society, forget too often. It's hard to be true to others and ourselves, and often times, it's only in our worst moments we are truly honest with ourselves.

I just like listening to Brand New by myself at 4 am, okay. I didn't ask for anything but what I demanded, which weren't the normal life things that seem to plague my life nowadays. I'm not just talking about my feelings towards HTGAWM, either.
Although, let's be real here, I have a lot of feelings about HTGAWM.

I guess I've kind of always sucked at feelings. I'm always really rude when it comes to them. I hate feeling them. They make me feel awful 90% of the time, and let's not even get started about talking about them.

I can't do it. I don't like to be anywhere near what I'm feeling, which is sad because I'm always right by my feelings. I feel to decide I don't like my feelings. 

I know that's why I suck at relationships and that's why the last few times I've gotten close to having a relationship I just kind of stopped until whatever we had disappeared. I guess that's fine by me, but it also ruined whatever friendship we had going on. Which is sad, because I usually do like my friends, if I like anyone.

I guess I turn cute feelings I have for others into angry feelings. I should probably work on that. I really should. I think that's why, I, as an individual, really, really, really suck.

It's just hard to break out of a habit you've had for so long, though. It's so hard when your automatic response to something isn't an answer anymore because you dictate it to be inadequate now. I think if I'm going to mess up with anything, it's probably going to be that.

I slept all day today to avoid feelings I've been having for a long time now. Should probably go back to sleep, if I want to be up in the next two hours. And for any of my readers out there, face your feelings.